no regrets♥.

When he calls;

just to tell you about how he cannot stop thinking about you and that you are so perfect. I adore him❤.

Watching a sad movie;

for an excuse to cry3. I don’t know why it all just suddenly came crashing down; realizing just how long four years is, thinking of the choices I’ve made, regreting some, loving others. He’s leaving soon, and I’m already a mess. So much stress, in life, in school, with friends. How does everyone handle this? I want a simple fairytale ending, but it’s never that simple is it? I miss my friends, I miss having someone I can trust one hundred and ten percent, not that I don’t have it now, but I miss that feeling where you think the world is filled with good people, people who care, people who love. I don’t know what’s worse right now, knowing the love of my life is going to be gone in the blink of an eye, or not knowing if our relationship will last. I want to marry him, to have kids with him, buy a beachhouse, grow old with him. I’m so stressed about school. How’d I let my grade get this low? Now I’m scrambling to do five projects at a time and I don’t know if I’ll make it. I just need a break, a break from everything; I just want to pause time and sleep, sleep without dreams, just REST. I want to forget the world.

and a tear escaped my eye as i realized that shit was about to get real. he was leaving me soon; soon i would be on my own in this scary world we live in.